Update

Just thought I would update everyone on what is going on with us.  We are currently attending our old church until the Lord opens a door somewhere else in ministry.  The kids like it there, they (and we) are comfortable there. 

Meanwhile my husband has accepted a job.  It's not exactly full time but it pays decent and it will still allow him to minister.  He is working with our local funeral home.  The people that run it are good Christian people who have always treated the funeral home as a ministry.  They are the same people that handled my Dad's funeral 6 years ago!  This is really a blessing for us.  It will provide income as well as give DH some way of being able to minister to people.  They have several locations and they need someone to run one of the offices plus help with funerals.  He is excited and glad for the opportunity.  I am happy for him.  I think it will help him feel like he is providing for his family again!

I had to make a difficult decision this past weekend.  Things came to a head and I had to make a choice as to whether or not to continue my online classes or not.  I had already began the semester but I was struggling.  I didn't understand the material and I was having a hard time making the time to do the work.  So, Saturday morning I sat on my front porch with my Bible and I prayed about what to do.  I knew my husband would be upset and disappointed in me.  That is one of the main reasons I didn't want to quit.  But, I realized I can't do this for him.  I had to pray about what GOD wanted me to do.  I really feel that quitting is the right thing.  I may be wrong, I might be feeling that way because it's what I want.  But, I feel peace about this decision.  There are several reasons for my decision.  Lately I have been feeling like I'm not meant to be a web designer.  I've been feeling that my purpose in life has nothing to do with computers.  I just feel like God is calling me to something more.  What is so bad, is that I don't feel like I can talk to my husband about that.  I don't know why.  You would think He would be the one person that would understand.  I told him, and as I figured he was disappointed.  He doesn't understand how hard it is for me.  He thinks I should be able to make the time to do this.  One of the main things he doesn't want me to do is just give up.  We don't want to teach our children to give up on things just because it gets tough.  I understand that but this goes deeper than that and I just can't get him to understand.  I'm sure he will understand better in time.  I told him I would try harder to lose weight if I didn't have to concentrate so much on school!  LOL 

Meanwhile today is his birthday!  I know, good birthday present right?  "I'm quitting school, Happy Birthday"!  LOL  We have been so busy this past weekend that we haven't had a lot of time to celebrate.  I made him a pound cake Saturday and we had a fish fry with his parents.  I bought him something but I haven't given it to him yet.  I can't really buy much for him since he is unemployed and we don't have any money.  But, hopefully that will change soon.  He has an interview tomorrow that sounds pretty promising.  I'm praying about that!  We both are.  I think it will work out good for him and for our family.  We will see soon enough I guess!

Done

Well folks, we are done.  This past Sunday was our last Sunday at LRBC.  It was a day of mixed emotions.  It was part relief and part sad.  The kids were pretty upset.  That broke my heart more than anything.  They just don't understand.  They don't know what their Dad has been through.  They don't like saying good bye.  My daughter (the drama queen) said it was breaking her heart!  There are many friends at that church that I hated to say good bye to and I am going to miss seeing them every week (very much!).  But, I am also relieved that next Sunday when we come home I won't have to see that defeated look on my husband's face.  Or atleast if I do it won't be because someone told him he wasn't doing his job as a Pastor, or because he's been trying to stop a gossip line going around in the church.

He did explain some things to the church on Sunday night as to why the Lord has led him to leave.  Some people had no idea that he has had to put up with and some people knew and understood.  Some people were probably secretly jumping for joy.  I hate that it all had to end this way but I am proud of my husband for sticking with the Bible and not giving into the temptation to strike back when he was put down, lied about or lied to.  He can honestly hold his head up and not be ashamed of how he handled things.  I know the Lord will bless him for that and that the Lord has a plan for him.