First of all let me say that the previous post was something copied from another blog.  It doesn't necessarily reflect the views of this PW! (That sounds like a radio or TV show! LOL)  Anyways, I just wanted to be sure and state that since someone may read it and think that everything mentioned is how I feel.  I haven't been through some of those things but some I have and I just thought it would be good to get that info out there.

That being said, I am a little aggravated with myself.  I am still struggling with the whole prayer closet/quiet time.  There are so many changes that I would like to make in my life but I know that I should take one step at the time.  Baby steps, as they say.  There is also alot of stress and confusion going on right now dealing with church and work (especially church).  I want to be all that I can be for my husband and help him make the right decision (or help him understand what God wants us to do). One thing is that I am trying to be more reserved. Thinking before I speak more.  That is something I've always struggled with.  Sometimes words come stumbling out of my mouth before I realize what I've done. (That happened to me last week and I made a big mess of things!)

It seems like so often I disappoint myself as a PW.  I feel like there are certain things a PW should or should not do as to set the example for others.  I get reminded of this at work quite a bit.  I often make the mistake of letting my guard down at work, I guess because none of the people I work with attend my church.  Anyways, if I ever mess up at work (maybe say something not so nice or something like that), there are a few at work that like to remind me that I am a PW and I should not say things like that.  Most of the time I know that are just picking, but it bothers me.  (I'm making it sound like I cuss or something but it's not that, it's just saying something off the wall picking on someone or something like that!).

Anyways, I'm not perfect, I never will be!  I think I need to realize that more than anyone.

I have been working on this post for two days now.  LOL  I walked in last night and my husband looked more relaxed than he had in a week!  He had just managed to get his mind off of everything for a while yesterday.  That is a good thing, I guess the next couple of weeks will help him make a decision.  It's hard for him because he doesn't like change. 

Keep praying!